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I wish I could show you the passport photo I just got back from the state department. I actually am glad I can't. I remember my grandmother telling me that if you get up everyday and fix your hair and put on your makeup..........you are ready for whatever happens that day or whoever comes to visit you. Yes, that would be my Grandma Sanders.............who I NEVER have seen in sweat pants, no makeup and unfixed hair. I find "fixing" myself to be tiresome...........I would rather clean my house than fix my hair and put my makeup on. When I get home from work, I have to wash my face, take off any jewelry and slip into the most comfortable clothes I own............which are usually the baggiest and ugliest. Comfort is supreme for me...............and my passport photo....shows a very tired middle aged woman who needs a face lift just in her jowl area and second chin area.............I actually was tired that day and frustrated with the post office............getting a passport is no easy deal..........and I am not smiling...........I look irritated and very much like my father...........who has a head and neck like Fred Flintstone. I see my future and I see it clearly. My nose has started to grow too............My husbands nose and ears have grown considerably since we married over 20 years ago.............I thought that was a man thing......but obviously I am partaking of that ugly truth too. In the passport picture I have no makeup on and my hair is in a headband...............maybe I should hang this picture on my bathroom mirror every morning to inspire me to do a little better........put in a bit more effort. I think I have done the effort before and it really doesn't pay off........the chin is still there and the hair just falls flat anyway. I have stared at this picture and wondered what has happened to me. I got a Christmas card from a friend my age who never married and never had any children. She looks GREAT!!! Young and fresh............and rested and doing what she wants to do. Why am I getting this passport? Am I going somewhere exciting?
NO!!!! I told Chris years ago there were 2 things I would not want to do..........go to Disney World and go on a Cruise. I have been to Disney World 3 times with this man..............and now in March I have to go on a Cruise with his work.........all I can say is GROSS!! It's like Luby's cafeteria and bingo on a boat...........and karaoke...........and miniature golf.................anyway. My friend Mary Susan is going to live in France next year...........and I am going BY MY SELF to see her.....so I am glad I have my passport...........double chin and all.....