I "stumbled" upon my blog, which I haven't looked at in ages!!!! The truth is the last few years have been very trying and dark. I was shocked to see the last post I wrote about "resting in The Lord and not striving".........really it is unbelievable. If you would ask me today what my greatest challenges to faith are........it is the exact same thing.......here is the difference between 2011 and today:
We had a family crisis that led Tucker and I to go to Georgia a few months ago to a ministry called Be In Health that changed not only his life, but mine!!!
I would tell you today that before I went, I was an unbelieving believer.....I loved Jesus, or at least thought I did, but didn't live my life in a way that experienced any victory really......I knew He loved me, but had accepted that life was just a hard struggle and we were going to suffer.....that was just reality.....I didn't really believe in victory or freedom or release..........I had never had good teaching about spiritual roots and struggles.....and that we have a God Head.....Father, Son and Holy Spirit....and that we have an enemy. Of course I had been taught some of these things, but I never really "got" it.
I am learning that the voices in my head aren't always mine.....and that I believe a lot of lies, untruths.....that God's truth is Sanity.......and my thoughts aren't always sane... Thank God for his Holy Spirit and wisdom and discernment to be healed......
I always turned away from that kind of talk before because I thought it was false teaching.....and basically my heart was hardened to it.......so happy to be free of that now........or at least getting freer from it.......
