Thursday, September 15, 2011
Saturday, September 10, 2011
not done yet....
So yesterday was really tough..........Emily is not getting her visa in time to fly out on Tuesday....
We, for $1700.00, had to change her flight to Wed.........and now may not even be able to make that. We were given bad info from the visa service, from a woman who "no longer works there" and are now paying for it in spades. Of course Sue and I will continue on Tuesday......without Emily.........bizarre as that sounds.......and pray she gets on for Wed. This has added considerable stress to the point of just being numb. I am afraid to say that her going away to school is a much bigger deal than anticipated. That being said, so goes life and we must just deal with it. I can't wait for her to be there and done with this............no, I can't wait for Christmas break when we are all home together....
We, for $1700.00, had to change her flight to Wed.........and now may not even be able to make that. We were given bad info from the visa service, from a woman who "no longer works there" and are now paying for it in spades. Of course Sue and I will continue on Tuesday......without Emily.........bizarre as that sounds.......and pray she gets on for Wed. This has added considerable stress to the point of just being numb. I am afraid to say that her going away to school is a much bigger deal than anticipated. That being said, so goes life and we must just deal with it. I can't wait for her to be there and done with this............no, I can't wait for Christmas break when we are all home together....
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
breakdown
Ok, I have cried for the past two days and told Chris something is really wrong with me and just go ahead and have me committed somewhere.........and don't come visit me.......just put me away somewhere really cheap........or better yet, shoot me and put you and I both out of my misery. (to my mother who is panicking, I am fine)
First off, what a huge baby I am. People deal with much worse than broken houses and children leaving home........and humidity.......and broken children at school.........and all the stresses of everyday life, but I seem to not have the bandwith to deal effectively. And, it is almost like I am watching myself have this anxiety from outside of myself knowing I am being silly......seeing myself as an overworried old woman.........but can't do anything about it. I know I am stressed about the plane ride to Scotland next week.......and I have several friends my age going through the same thing.........one of them hit it on the head.........weariness..........and it's almost like you are an engine who is torqued up and can't slow down and relax, even if you try. So Monday I went with my friend to Pier One and we shopped for something that would completely change our lives and make us normal feeling again........she bought a blanket and a coffee table........I bought nothing. We really tried to find something to change my life, but there was nothing. So, we went to eat Pad Thai and laughed at how ridiculous we are..........and then went to our separate dirty houses and took naps. I felt a little better.
First off, what a huge baby I am. People deal with much worse than broken houses and children leaving home........and humidity.......and broken children at school.........and all the stresses of everyday life, but I seem to not have the bandwith to deal effectively. And, it is almost like I am watching myself have this anxiety from outside of myself knowing I am being silly......seeing myself as an overworried old woman.........but can't do anything about it. I know I am stressed about the plane ride to Scotland next week.......and I have several friends my age going through the same thing.........one of them hit it on the head.........weariness..........and it's almost like you are an engine who is torqued up and can't slow down and relax, even if you try. So Monday I went with my friend to Pier One and we shopped for something that would completely change our lives and make us normal feeling again........she bought a blanket and a coffee table........I bought nothing. We really tried to find something to change my life, but there was nothing. So, we went to eat Pad Thai and laughed at how ridiculous we are..........and then went to our separate dirty houses and took naps. I felt a little better.
Monday, September 5, 2011
Labor Day
Emily is in New York, Tucker is in Oklahoma, the humidity is horrific in Virginia.......where the rest of us sadly have to stay.
This weekend has been so busy and I have to say it all came to a crashing halt for me last night. Our furnace is broken........and our air conditioner is on and off.....and it is hot and humid and more so upstairs than down. I really think with just Jake home we should sell the place and rent an apartment somewhere.............I am all about simplifying and downsizing. Chris is not handy and an old house needs a ton of care and handy work. I should say I am not handy either.....and we both must appear stupid as we are constantly facing people trying to rip us off..........but that is not my point here. My point is I had a very busy week at work, an event Friday night, tailgating and football on Saturday at UVA and then polo and tailgating at a local vineyard. Saturday night sitting in the hot stands, with the bathrooms overflowing and closed at the stadium I hit a breaking point and needed to go home................yesterday at polo..........surrounded by overly served people, I hit a breaking point again.........of course after standing in line for a stinking port a john that was 120 degrees inside.........I was so sweaty I couldn't pull up my underwear.......sorry, to much information, but you get the point. and you have to know the kicker..........WE PAID to do all of that............today....I am staying home....all day..........happy labor day.
This weekend has been so busy and I have to say it all came to a crashing halt for me last night. Our furnace is broken........and our air conditioner is on and off.....and it is hot and humid and more so upstairs than down. I really think with just Jake home we should sell the place and rent an apartment somewhere.............I am all about simplifying and downsizing. Chris is not handy and an old house needs a ton of care and handy work. I should say I am not handy either.....and we both must appear stupid as we are constantly facing people trying to rip us off..........but that is not my point here. My point is I had a very busy week at work, an event Friday night, tailgating and football on Saturday at UVA and then polo and tailgating at a local vineyard. Saturday night sitting in the hot stands, with the bathrooms overflowing and closed at the stadium I hit a breaking point and needed to go home................yesterday at polo..........surrounded by overly served people, I hit a breaking point again.........of course after standing in line for a stinking port a john that was 120 degrees inside.........I was so sweaty I couldn't pull up my underwear.......sorry, to much information, but you get the point. and you have to know the kicker..........WE PAID to do all of that............today....I am staying home....all day..........happy labor day.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Earthquake
Strangest thing.........at 1:07 am....we had another earthquake. Chris and I woke up at the same time and instantly grabbed each others hand....at the same time......Jake did not wake up, which is a blessing.......he gets scared so easily. This one wasn't as bad as the first on Tues. and it was the first one I have felt. I don't like it and don't recommend it. On top of that we have a hurricane coming our way this weekend.............we have not had weather peace in 2 years....it is getting old.........
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Whirlwinds and Earthquakes
I haven't figured out how to post pictures from my iphone onto my blog.....and don't have time this week to do it, so until then....no pictures. It has been truly a whirlwind of activity around here. The kids and I set off for Oklahoma last week with a few stops along the way....a visit in Atlanta with one of my best friends.....lunch with my Grandmother and Aunt and Uncle in Arkansas........a day with my niece and nephew before they started school the next day.......and visits with my mom and family too. The big news is we dropped off Tucker at Oklahoma State. We were in Stillwater for 2 days........one to get him moved into his apartment and one for orientation.....figuring out the campus.....it has changed or my brain has because I was mostly lost. Tucker's roomy is a Texas boy and had several pair of boots lined up by the door at the apt......he was very much a "yes maam" kind of kid and seems very nice.. Tucker seems to like him. I guess I would describe my time in Stillwater, other than majorly infusing the economy there at Walmart....as trying to get T set up for great success. I felt we had finished our tasks........hugged him and said goodby and drove back to my Mom's in Sapulpa, a mere 50 minutes away. We had a great evening........and then started the drive home the next morning.....non eventful drive that took us through farm country in MO, IL, IN and Kentucky.........we just couldn't stomach I40 in TN this trip. The way we drove was great....only bad thing...........the Virginias...........bad roads and construction in both states....and way too many trucks.... All was well until we pulled into our driveway............the kids jumped out and I sat there and looked at the house, Tucker's car, our driveway.........and bawled like a woman in a bad lifetime channel tv movie...........that went on for most of the evening. I don't know if I felt like I had survived it all and it was over? If the sadness of I can't get to him if I need to? who knows.....I have to do it all over again in a few weeks with Emily.............she was fed up with me on several points of this trip and finally texted her Dad to please take her to Scotland instead of me........if we could change it, I think I would.............hard doesn't even describe what this time of life is. Today is the first day of school for Jake............we are KIND of ready.....and very tired and fussy......I see the pangs of early adolescence sneaking in.....lots of anxiety and fear all of a sudden....the earthquake yesterday didn't help him.. I have had emails, calls and texts from all over the country due to the media coverage of this thing....... I have to say.. I live 30 minutes from the epicenter and never felt a thing. I haven't felt an aftershock either. I was in my car driving at the time and for the second one, I was outside in the back yard. On the other hand, Chris said his whole building swayed and it really scared him. Jake was home alone and just ran outside with the rest of the neighborhood. I did hear that a chimney a few blocks away crumbled to the ground. Interesting that my little house stood strong and the capitol in DC, further away suffered damage.............anyway....we are all fine and still kicking. Say a prayer for Tucker today.....the club Lacrosse team meets at OSU tonight and I am hoping that is a great source of friendship and joy for him. more later.....
Saturday, August 13, 2011
It's all new and different.....
For my Mother and Mother in Law.............
because you have been mean about my lack of blogging and have bullied me...........
and because I am also a Mother and will now have 2 children living an ungodly distance away from me.................
I am starting again.........no promises.......this is going to be a weird year..........
one child in Scotland, one in Oklahoma..........and one in middle school.........
I may lose my mind.
It all starts tomorrow.......as we start the drive west to Ok. for T. to attend OSU, my alma mater, but a MUCH different place then where he has been......has to be in God's hands, mine are too small.......and then a few weeks later off to Scotland to drop off E. I will be taking Xanax and Ambien on the plane....which brings me to another thing........I can't do this if I feel like I have to be fake or pleasant. I always have my Mother and my Grandma Ruby's voice in my head that says, " you don't have to tell everything you know", but I often do and sometimes it is not pretty or nice or even organized in a way that is people pleasing, but if I am to be honest about my own journey, I have to be me.......messy and broken......as we all really are. So today is my last day home with my two oldest children until Christmas...........ugh!!! One is asleep on the couch with the tv still on from last night.........the other in her bed, where she loves to spend her time. Today we will pack, check last minute details, I am sure argue................and then tomorrow off to Atlanta to see Auntie Pam, (my dear friend that the kids call that) She is a Pastor of the second largest Presbyterian Church in Atlanta. She has a manse in Buckhead.......fancy town, and we are so excited to spend time with her............and then 12 hours west from there to Grandma Ruby's in Arkansas for either lunch or dinner.......depending on our timing...........a few hours with her and then off to Ok. Wed. is the last day before my niece and nephew go to school so we will hang with them.............Thurs and Fri are OSU days for orientation..........and then straight back home.......no xanax or ambien as I am driving............but I think I'll be ok......T. needs a fresh start and hoping OSU will be that.......everybody PRAY!!!! so, that's the outlook for the next week....oh, and Buoy is going with us..........I know that sounds crazy, but he is such a comfort for us all and we need him....he is the best traveler we have.........
because you have been mean about my lack of blogging and have bullied me...........
and because I am also a Mother and will now have 2 children living an ungodly distance away from me.................
I am starting again.........no promises.......this is going to be a weird year..........
one child in Scotland, one in Oklahoma..........and one in middle school.........
I may lose my mind.
It all starts tomorrow.......as we start the drive west to Ok. for T. to attend OSU, my alma mater, but a MUCH different place then where he has been......has to be in God's hands, mine are too small.......and then a few weeks later off to Scotland to drop off E. I will be taking Xanax and Ambien on the plane....which brings me to another thing........I can't do this if I feel like I have to be fake or pleasant. I always have my Mother and my Grandma Ruby's voice in my head that says, " you don't have to tell everything you know", but I often do and sometimes it is not pretty or nice or even organized in a way that is people pleasing, but if I am to be honest about my own journey, I have to be me.......messy and broken......as we all really are. So today is my last day home with my two oldest children until Christmas...........ugh!!! One is asleep on the couch with the tv still on from last night.........the other in her bed, where she loves to spend her time. Today we will pack, check last minute details, I am sure argue................and then tomorrow off to Atlanta to see Auntie Pam, (my dear friend that the kids call that) She is a Pastor of the second largest Presbyterian Church in Atlanta. She has a manse in Buckhead.......fancy town, and we are so excited to spend time with her............and then 12 hours west from there to Grandma Ruby's in Arkansas for either lunch or dinner.......depending on our timing...........a few hours with her and then off to Ok. Wed. is the last day before my niece and nephew go to school so we will hang with them.............Thurs and Fri are OSU days for orientation..........and then straight back home.......no xanax or ambien as I am driving............but I think I'll be ok......T. needs a fresh start and hoping OSU will be that.......everybody PRAY!!!! so, that's the outlook for the next week....oh, and Buoy is going with us..........I know that sounds crazy, but he is such a comfort for us all and we need him....he is the best traveler we have.........
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