Earthquake

Strangest thing.........at 1:07 am....we had another earthquake. Chris and I woke up at the same time and instantly grabbed each others hand....at the same time......Jake did not wake up, which is a blessing.......he gets scared so easily. This one wasn't as bad as the first on Tues. and it was the first one I have felt. I don't like it and don't recommend it. On top of that we have a hurricane coming our way this weekend.............we have not had weather peace in 2 years....it is getting old.........

Whirlwinds and Earthquakes

I haven't figured out how to post pictures from my iphone onto my blog.....and don't have time this week to do it, so until then....no pictures. It has been truly a whirlwind of activity around here. The kids and I set off for Oklahoma last week with a few stops along the way....a visit in Atlanta with one of my best friends.....lunch with my Grandmother and Aunt and Uncle in Arkansas........a day with my niece and nephew before they started school the next day.......and visits with my mom and family too. The big news is we dropped off Tucker at Oklahoma State. We were in Stillwater for 2 days........one to get him moved into his apartment and one for orientation.....figuring out the campus.....it has changed or my brain has because I was mostly lost. Tucker's roomy is a Texas boy and had several pair of boots lined up by the door at the apt......he was very much a "yes maam" kind of kid and seems very nice.. Tucker seems to like him. I guess I would describe my time in Stillwater, other than majorly infusing the economy there at Walmart....as trying to get T set up for great success. I felt we had finished our tasks........hugged him and said goodby and drove back to my Mom's in Sapulpa, a mere 50 minutes away. We had a great evening........and then started the drive home the next morning.....non eventful drive that took us through farm country in MO, IL, IN and Kentucky.........we just couldn't stomach I40 in TN this trip. The way we drove was great....only bad thing...........the Virginias...........bad roads and construction in both states....and way too many trucks.... All was well until we pulled into our driveway............the kids jumped out and I sat there and looked at the house, Tucker's car, our driveway.........and bawled like a woman in a bad lifetime channel tv movie...........that went on for most of the evening. I don't know if I felt like I had survived it all and it was over? If the sadness of I can't get to him if I need to? who knows.....I have to do it all over again in a few weeks with Emily.............she was fed up with me on several points of this trip and finally texted her Dad to please take her to Scotland instead of me........if we could change it, I think I would.............hard doesn't even describe what this time of life is. Today is the first day of school for Jake............we are KIND of ready.....and very tired and fussy......I see the pangs of early adolescence sneaking in.....lots of anxiety and fear all of a sudden....the earthquake yesterday didn't help him.. I have had emails, calls and texts from all over the country due to the media coverage of this thing....... I have to say.. I live 30 minutes from the epicenter and never felt a thing. I haven't felt an aftershock either. I was in my car driving at the time and for the second one, I was outside in the back yard. On the other hand, Chris said his whole building swayed and it really scared him. Jake was home alone and just ran outside with the rest of the neighborhood. I did hear that a chimney a few blocks away crumbled to the ground. Interesting that my little house stood strong and the capitol in DC, further away suffered damage.............anyway....we are all fine and still kicking. Say a prayer for Tucker today.....the club Lacrosse team meets at OSU tonight and I am hoping that is a great source of friendship and joy for him. more later.....

It's all new and different.....

For my Mother and Mother in Law.............
because you have been mean about my lack of blogging and have bullied me...........
and because I am also a Mother and will now have 2 children living an ungodly distance away from me.................
I am starting again.........no promises.......this is going to be a weird year..........
one child in Scotland, one in Oklahoma..........and one in middle school.........
I may lose my mind.
It all starts tomorrow.......as we start the drive west to Ok. for T. to attend OSU, my alma mater, but a MUCH different place then where he has been......has to be in God's hands, mine are too small.......and then a few weeks later off to Scotland to drop off E. I will be taking Xanax and Ambien on the plane....which brings me to another thing........I can't do this if I feel like I have to be fake or pleasant. I always have my Mother and my Grandma Ruby's voice in my head that says, " you don't have to tell everything you know", but I often do and sometimes it is not pretty or nice or even organized in a way that is people pleasing, but if I am to be honest about my own journey, I have to be me.......messy and broken......as we all really are. So today is my last day home with my two oldest children until Christmas...........ugh!!! One is asleep on the couch with the tv still on from last night.........the other in her bed, where she loves to spend her time. Today we will pack, check last minute details, I am sure argue................and then tomorrow off to Atlanta to see Auntie Pam, (my dear friend that the kids call that) She is a Pastor of the second largest Presbyterian Church in Atlanta. She has a manse in Buckhead.......fancy town, and we are so excited to spend time with her............and then 12 hours west from there to Grandma Ruby's in Arkansas for either lunch or dinner.......depending on our timing...........a few hours with her and then off to Ok. Wed. is the last day before my niece and nephew go to school so we will hang with them.............Thurs and Fri are OSU days for orientation..........and then straight back home.......no xanax or ambien as I am driving............but I think I'll be ok......T. needs a fresh start and hoping OSU will be that.......everybody PRAY!!!! so, that's the outlook for the next week....oh, and Buoy is going with us..........I know that sounds crazy, but he is such a comfort for us all and we need him....he is the best traveler we have.........

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter! I hope to take lots of pictures tomorrow as we will all be together.......which is rare anymore.

Emily made a decision and will be going to St. Andrews in Scotland for college. LOTS of emotions behind that for me this week as it was all settling in to reality. I think I want my 2 and 4 year old children back!!

no posts

I haven't posted for over a month. I was really going to be better this year, but I just can't. It is a tremendous time of stress in our house as one has come home from college and one is preparing to leave for college. The family dynamic thing is tense and hard. Lots of people going in different directions. Give me 8 year olds any day and I can parent..........18 and 20???? ugh! You basically have to "stay out of it" and just pray they make the right decisions. Poor Jakey just watches it all.........I also have had two friends lose children this past month. The pain of that is unbearable. The students I serve at school are either in some real trauma or homeless..........how do you convince people who have never had a work ethic to have one? that it can save their lives? I am amazed at the people who expect others to do for them.........we leave next week for St. Thomas and I just hope it is the much needed break we all need.

League Champions

Chris coaches Jake's basketball team..........they have gone undefeated all season and yesterday won the championships..........I put my camera and a fresh battery in my purse........and didn't take a single picture.........ugh!

Feb. Chaos

I don't know why I expect the winter months to be quiet and easier.......life still happens and it is messy as usual. I found myself in a situation this week I hope to have learned from.......hopefully it was painful enough that I did learn from it. I had told a colleague about a situation I was concerned about and didn't know what to think about and this person used that information inappropriately in a "slinging arrows" kind of way for personal gain..............which led to the vice president of another agency calling me to tell me they were firing somebody, a scapegoat in the situation. It all got so convoluted and out of hand...........all because of a concern that was brought to me that I shared with who I thought was a trusted colleague. After 3 hours of phone calls and conversations........and utter exhaustion, this poor single mom with a brain injury will NOT be fired, but what a mess. I had to tell this colleague how out of line she was, but in typical self righteous way of people who do these things............she has it all figured out how it was her "duty"..........anyway.......I also found an administrator in our building to be utterly useless.............which was not a good way to end the week. Here's to no more chaos and a long weekend.